OOC: I was listening to music as I wrote this so hopefully there isn't too many lyrics :O I wanted to find sad songs for the memories.
Circe listened to what Gah-Jular had today with interest. "Don't be silly, I wouldn't have stabbed you in the back." she said, "I'd have drained you dry of all the blood in your body." She was joking, but she was unsure if the Argonian understood her sense of humor. "Well I can't exactly tell you my life story, it's far too long." she said with a grin. "Besides, periods of time in my life are long or short by how eventful they are." She could tell the Argonian didn't quite understand her, so he explained. "The second era actually felt like an era because of all that went on, I was doing something and nearly every day was something different. The third era doesn't feel like it went for too long as I didn't do much. Well, I didn't do nothing. Just mostly the same thing." Circe began thinking about her mortal life, and what it had been like.
-in an age long ago-
Circes first breakup:
"If you don't even love me enough to have sex with me why do we bother." Lorkmir said, annoyed. "I'm only 14!" screamed Circe, "You're trying to use me!" she was really upset. "No you used me!" he shouted back, "You used me to fulfill some messed up loving romantic relationship fantasy! You're worthless, and I'll find someone better than you." and with that Lorkmir left. That someone better was Circes best friend.
This memory didn't trouble Circe anymore.
-"CIRCE!" A voice shouted from the basement. Circe dropped what she was doing and ran to the voice. "Yes father?" she asked. "What the hell is this?" he asked, pissed off. Circe was frightened. "What is wha-" her voice stopped dead. Her best friend Daud was beaten to a pulp at her fathers feet. Circe ran up to her father and began hitting him, screaming. He gently removed her from him and calmly said "I didn't do this sweetie," then his voice got dark "but tell me what he is doing in my bloody house." "I invited him." she said, chin up. "Well now he knows we worship Molag Bal. What do you think of that huh?" Her father was clearly angry, she was lucky he wasn't abusive. Circe immediately became embarrassed, frightened, upset. "He's going to tell everyone... He's going to think I'm a monster... He's going to hate me..." she began to cry. Daud slowly approached her, and wrapped his arms around her trying to comfort her. With all his cuts and bruises it hurt him, but it was worth it.-
This is the memory where Circe realized who would always be there for her, he had gone through hell traveling through Skyrim to get to her house. Took a long time. The next memory however is where she gets closer to her regrets.
"You're going to stay young forever Circe, and I'm going to die." Daud said, they were together now and had been for a while. "I can turn you, we'll live forever together." Circe said, she thought she had it figured out. "you mean together forever?"
"Shut up." She joked, "No seriously.. Just let me turn you..." she said, she put her arms on his shoulders. He agreed, she proceeded upon his neck. He survived the bite, and two centuries later he was a very skilled and dangerous vampire. He didn't even kill the innocent, but if he would he'd have been high rocks worst nightmare. When it came to joining Harkon, and killing innocents, he couldn't do it. He had refused in front of Harkon and Circes parents, they were shocked. "We're outsiders and aloud in and you refuse, are you stupid boy! This is a golden opportunity!" her father had yelled, among other things. Circe had gotten him alone, and tried prodding him into joining. "It just ain't us man, the killing the violence... Just ain't us. I should have died a long time ago Circe, this was a mistake." He was breaking her heart. "We're a mistake huh?" Circe asked, nearly crying. "Not us, the vampirism. We should be in the afterlife. "There is no afterlife!" screamed Circe, she knew of Sovenguard but didn't believe. She stormed off, and returned 7 hours later. She had wiped out 3 villages of people in anger, after killing nobody innocent since being bitten. Since being born. Daud was not pleased. He snuck up on her, "What the hell Circe?" he snapped. "We're vampires." she said coldly, "People die around us." "What made you think you had the right to take away somebody's life?" He asked, he couldn't believe the woman he had come to love had done this. "More than just some bodies, There was a lot of bodies." She was joking about it, which infuriated him. Such cold humor. "How could you be so full of hate? After everything!" He yelled, "I'm not full of hate, I'm the same Circe! Just stop with the useless avoidance of innocent blood shed. We are above mere men!" She was struggling not to cry, and knew she had to stand strong. "No Circe, you're not the same. Nothings been the same since I became a vampire, always pushing me to kill. Your father always worried I'm going to betray him and run off with you." He was saying, she cut him off. "It isn't like that!" pleaded Circe, tears were forming in her eyes. "I can't keep chasing you, I'm taking my life back." He said, she was losing him. Their relationship had gone downhill a century ago, he tried his hardest to please her but she treated him like he wasn't worthy. Yet he had meant everything to her. "I don't think you understand the sacrifices that I've made, maybe if you did I would have stayed. I've already wasted two centuries." Circe was crying, he was leaving her. "So for these two hundred years you haven't loved me, It's all been a lie..." she sobbed. "Circe," his voice desperate, "I would have died for you." She believed him. "No more pain, no more fights. We've taken each other for granted, there's nothing left of our relationship but ash and dust. I can't stand it, and I demand respect. I'm no longer going to be treated inferior or like your lap dog. I'm gonna be the boss of YOU now." she was confused, he saw this. If he's leaving how will be the boss? She wondered. "What I mean is that I wont let you control me." When he said this she thought back and realized how she treated him and ordered him around, she had realized before but always meant to 'fix it later'. It was now too late. Circe turned to walk away, he put his hand on her shoulder and spun her around so she was facing him again. "No you're hearing me out, that much you owe me." She was wiping her eyes trying to hold back more crying, but it was hopeless. "I gave up my life for you, I've been loyal to you. I don't even know why I stayed this long, I've been doing everything you've wanted me to do. Been everything you wanted me to be." Dauds voice got angry, "And this is how I get repaid!? Always in a rush to get back to you, no but I haven't heard you yet so once that you appreciate me. I deserve respect, I've done my best to give you nothing less than perfectness! I know that if I leave your family's clan I'll have nothing left, I'll be on the run and I'll own nothing but what I can take with me. But you keep stepping all over me and it's time for me to step up." Circe but in once again, "Daud, how can you not miss me if you leave? Daud I know you will. You'll just come back..." She whispered the last sentence. "I'll miss the woman you once were, not the monster you are today. And I won't be coming back, so don't hold your breath." He was angry, upset and was letting out two centuries of frustration all out at once. "Daud I killed a little, a little I'm sorry!" She screamed, "It isn't even just that Circe, you know it isn't." He said calmly back to her. "THAN WHAT HAVE I DONE?" she screamed at the top of her lungs. "You know what you've done, I don't need to tell you." Then he just disappeared, he went invisible, he ran. She didn't even bother changing her vision so she could see lifeforms, she didn't want to follow him. 25 years later they found each other again, she still wasn't over him. He had cured vampirism, but only 5 years ago. He had been a year younger than Circe when he was bitten, he looked about 20 years old. Recognizable, but mortal. She now donned Royal Vampire Robes, and he noticed her approaching as she stepped through the crowd. He was sitting on a bench, she sat beside him. "You have cured yourself, you have become prey." She said to him. "Good." Is all he said. "It's not too late..." she whispered. "Let me turn you..."
"No." His answers were short, he was in mourning of the old Circe. Seeing her now only made him want to rip his heart out. Coming from such innocence to what she was today, he waited for her to speak again. "Just come back Daud, this is a waste of time. Being a mortal is just foolish, why be such a creature when you can be so much more?" Her offers were useless. He stood up and faced her, she stood up beside him. "You're still trying, just give up." He said angrily, "How's it feel huh?" he asked. She knew where this was going, it wasn't going to end well. "You neglected me. I guess you did me a favor, if you hadn't I'd still be a vampire. So you've set my spirit free, an I'll always have a special place for you in my heart Circe. It's unfortunate but it's just too late for us." She was getting angry, rather than upset. "Daud, what made you feel this way..." she asked. "You." "Well how do you feel?" She had never asked him this before, not since they became vampires. She assumed being a vampire did as much for him as it did for her, it did not. "I felt like when I tried my hardest for you, went out of my for you, alls you did was laugh. You expected me to work till I snapped. I had no life outside of pleasing you and your family, didn't I give you enough of my time? You don't think so you do you. Why I stayed that long I don't know, I saw the signs in the first 10 years." He stopped to see what she'd say, there was a small silence. "I gave you immortality.." she started, he cut in right away. "Well go bite someone else and make them immortal!" he yelled, it drew a few people's attention.
Circe could feel eyes on her. "And take away their freedom like you did to me, treat them like you don't need them and they aren't worthy." "But you are worthy Daud, I love you!" she screamed. "Oh now I'm loved, I didn't feel loved when we were together! Alls I felt was helpless, imprisoned. You lied so much and I fell for it every time, it's just ridiculous. You make me sick." She began to cry again, at how it all could have been avoided. But in all her love for him she could never give up vampirism. "But you're addictive as they get, and as evil as they come. My mortal family just asked me why I couldn't just walk away, I didn't know then but I do now. I was just addicted to the pain and stress and drama, I was drawn to it. I was a mess, Vampirism was cursed and blessed. But I didn't change my mind, not last time. I cured it. You say that you miss me, but not once did you say you appreciate me." Circe begged once more, to which he finally said. "fl*ff you Circe, I left. My life sentence has been served." He left again, he just walked. But she saw him once more. When he was 31, not including the vampire years she tracked him down. He had become a vampire hunter and he was tasked in killing him for Harkon. She tracked him down to an old crypt, she moved silently and swiftly through the vampire den. When she found him he was at the central chamber, he had defeated the vampire he came for. The tomb was wide open, and stand before it bloodied and worn out. He rested in his victory, until he heard a door creak shut behind him. Circe stood still in the shadows before stepping out to approach him. "Circe..." he gasped, "is it really you?" She was silent. She walked right up to him, he was too exhausted to fight. He accepted death. She had other things in mind, she drew her katana (The kind Harkon has
) and ran up to him ready to stab him but at the last 2 feet dropped it and lunged in. She bit hard into his neck once more, when she pulled away he had to pricks of blood dropping. She pushed him into the tomb, he had struggled but it was nothing compared to what strength a vampire holds. He fainted, but she was sure he'd survive. She placed her katana with him so he'd be forced with a vampiric artifact, and her memory. She sealed the tomb, and rounded up hoards of dead to guard the tomb. It took a few months, but eventually the main chamber had become a pit of death. No one would disturb him. Over time bandits moved in and out of the place, but only way up above close to the surface. Daud was much deeper below. This chamber had been in Skyrim. He had moved out of High Rock, his reasons obvious. Picked up vampire hunting and travelled Skyrim. He's still there, and Circe doesn't know if he actually did survive. After that encounter, realizing she couldn't kill him and she failed Harkon she left with her mother and father to start their own once more. But Circe has returned to Skyrim, and she's looking for an old friend.-
-Back to reality-
Her pace had slowed down so much Gah-Jular had to call out to her for her to catch up. She diminished her depressive thoughts and turned them into violence, the next pack of wolves they encountered didn't stand a chance. She burned to a charred corpse of useless burnt fur and burned meat. "Can we find some bandits?" Asked Circe at a fast pace, "I need to kill."
